Who will watch over you?

I havent been able to stop thinking about the plane that the media at first claimed just vanished. (We now know for sure it crashed.) I know you really shouldnt put your time and energy into thinking about such negative things. The what ifs. But what if? Life just goes by so fast. You never know when that hug and kiss or I love you will be your last. Think about the things we take for granted. The time we think we have. The "I'll get to it tomorrows" or the "I'll tell them one day". I hate to always revert back to discussing my mom....but even her illness happened so quick. I can imagine that many of her thoughts were left unsaid. Many of the things she wanted to do never got done. I just dont want to be that person. I want my thoughts heard out loud. I want to do all those things while I can. I want my children to know what I stand for and what I believe in wether I am here for another day or 50 years! I hate guessing how my mom would have felt about something, wondering if she'd be proud of me. In fact my mom supposedly wrote me and my brother each a letter.... and after all of these years I am still hoping the letters turn up one day just so I can know. I just want to make sure if I am the one you hear about on the news one day.... you know what I want. How I feel. Whats the best way to let it be known? Maybe I'll start blogging about it....?