It Wont Be Like This For Long

This song is so true. It seems like yesterday I was changing diapers and washing bottles. Now I am on to dances, dates, and things that my boys think are way more important than mom. We get so caught up in life, work, housework....sometimes I forget to stop and smell the roses. Thank you Darius Rucker for reminding me.... that it wont be like this for long.

Lack of Family

Am I the only one that remembers when no matter what…. You always had someone on your side. Your family! If you were broke, starving, lonely, pregnant, depressed or just wanted some company…. They were there! And you were there for them for the good and the bad. The highlight of my childhood was spending time with family. Swimming in Aunt Angel’s pool, listening to the grown ups play guitar and sing while the kids (me!) went snooping around the neighborhood or played Nintendo. Thanksgiving, Christmas, 4th of July, Easter. We cooked, laughed, but mostly just spent time together. I always felt like I had a mob to back me up if anyone crossed my path. In my family we don’t have 2nd, 3rd, 4th cousins – we are all cousins. Family. Close family.

You would think that since my mom died at such a young age, we would spend more time together. These days we are all just too busy. Myself included. It seems like my immediate family gets my attention but I am too tired or too busy to go participate in other family functions. I am not even sure there are family functions anymore. It’s just sad. I wish my kids could experience what I felt growing up. I think every other weekend I was at one of the grandparents. My grandparents taught me so much. Cooking, baking, social skills, religion, family values. I am just trying to figure out what changed and why. My kids rarely spend the night with family. They wont have the memories that I had. Or hear the stories about “the good old days”. I cant help but wonder how different things would be if mom were here. She was the glue that held us together.

Typically, someone would be there for me about right now telling me to pick my big drooping chin up off the floor, or making me laugh. Reminding me how good I have it. Reminding me that “family is everything.” “As long as we have family…that is all that matters. As long as we have each other”. What changed?

Edward Cullen Junkie

I havent blogged in a while. Been swamped with work and the boys. Christian made me sit down and watch Twilight. I rolled my eyes thinking how silly it would be. He was asleep within 15 minutes and I was on the edge of the couch dying to know what happens! Since then I read the book...(in 4 hours) and finished New Moon lastnight (in 2 nights). I havent been this interested in reading since Junior High. My mind cant stop thinking about Edward Cullen. Ha ha ha. Like a 15 year old girl or something. I think it just makes me remember the way I felt when I first met Brad....you know...the butterflies in your stomach, the thinking of them constantly, driving 100 MPH to get home to them. I still feel the same way about Brad dont get me wrong but there is just something about "new love" that this book brings me back to. So, thank you Stephanie Meyer for introducing me to Edward Cullen! It was so nice to step out of everyday life for a few hours into the passionate - exciting leading role of Bella Swan.

Now its back to reality. I am headed home to the laundry, the kids, the house..... the hubby :)

Have a great Easter Holiday!